Loneliness Is About The Scariest Thing There Is

I received a phone call from a friend of mine just now. It was 3.00 am in the morning. She sounded natural initially before she busted into tears.

And I forced her to tell me what's the matter. She insisted at first, and then she told me the whole thing.

She felt lonely.

She cried because she thought it sounds silly.

As I thought, she doesn't sounds silly at all. I completely understand her. I completely understand, at times people need somebody by their side, just to be by their side, to love, and to be loved. Nobody can beat loneliness, at least that's what I think. It's the reason for Naruto to be so protective over his companions, and it's drive Sasuke to be so vengeful against his own brother.

And it's also one of the reason I stopped watching movies alone, and it has been quite sometime now. No more movies without accompanies around.

As John Milton said,"Loneliness is about the scariest thing there is."

True. True.

Answering Rozita Che Wan

I met her once in Hartamas. She's tall, 1.65 or 1.70m tall I guess, an average tall for a Malay lady. Although in the dark of the night, I can still see her fair skin. And she got a nice pair of legs too. She is gorgeous! And she's 36, and has 2 kids for God sake!

And then, I came across with this interview of her in Kosmo yesterday. Most of it were questions of heart. You met the right man lady! I am here to answer it all!

“CANTIKKAH saya?” tanya Rozita Che Wan, 35, dalam ketawa manja. (I wouldn't answer that. That is one silly question. I mean, she did know that she is beautiful right? What's that? You say woman love to be told that they are beautiful? Okay then. Yes you are beautiful). Pertanyaan penulis berbalas soalan apabila menanya Rozita mengenai konflik wanita cantik. Sambungnya: “Sukarnya kerana terdedah kepada fitnah.”

Masih berkisar perihal cantik, sekali lagi dia tertawa manja <--- (Owhh man. I can imagine that. No my hands is not under my pants right now, you can see it here. Here (I am waving my hand)), “Saya rasa saya tidak cukup cantik. Kata orang, wanita cantik selalu dapat barangan yang mahal. Tetapi saya tidak pernah dimewahkan sebegitu. (Well that's good. I don't like to pamper my lady with expensive things anyway. (The truth is, I can't afford it)).

“Cukup hanya dihantarkan bunga atau di-SMS (Khidmat Pesanan Ringkas) menyatakan hasrat berkenalan.” Ia satu pernyataan yang sekali gus membuktikan dia tidak pernah dihujani kemewahan material.

Seperti luahan Rozita di atas kertas kajang dua muka surat yang disuakan kepada VAZZ, dia menegaskan dirinya bukan wanita murahan. (Aahhhh tak kisah. Janji ko comel. Hehehe). Individu-individu bergelar VIP (orang kenamaan) tidak pernah gagal digosipkan dengan dirinya. Tetapi siapa sebenarnya mereka ini pada mata Rozita sendiri?

“Ada antara mereka gunakan duit untuk beli perempuan. Sukar untuk mencari lelaki sebegini yang jujur. (You just haven't met with the right man yet lady. (I am referring to ehmm.. me. Cis tak malu)). Pada mereka duit boleh beli segalanya.

“Mereka juga terdedah dengan wanita cantik di mana sahaja. Jadi di mana akhirnya? Selepas berjumpa seorang, tidak mustahil untuk mereka bertemu yang lain pula pada masa depan.”

Saya soal, adakah seorang Rozita Che Wan memerlukan perbelanjaan yang tinggi maka sebab itu dia dikaitkan dengan lelaki-lelaki kaya sahaja?

Jawabnya: “Mahu sahaja saya katakan kepada mereka yang berpendapat sebegitu bahawa bukan mereka yang perlu menjaga diri saya.

“Kehidupan saya biasa-biasa sahaja. Perbelanjaan saya hampir serupa dengan wanita yang lain.”
Apa yang menjadi keutamaan Rozita adalah perkara asas yang perlu dilunaskan – rumah, kereta, perbelanjaan sekolah anak-anak, gaji pemandu, barangan rumah dan petrol kereta.

“Saya jarang ke spa mahupun salon. Begitu juga gimnasium. Tidak juga saya membuat rawatan muka. Kali terakhir saya ke salon ialah bulan Mei tahun lalu.

“Saya juga jarang keluar bersosial. Kalau yang menjadi obsesi saya hanyalah minyak wangi yang saya gunakan sebotol seminggu. Lalu bagaimana saya dilabelkan sebagai ‘wanita maintenance tinggi’?” (Well that means, I got a chance right? Right?)

Menurut Rozita, pekerjaan dan anak-anak menjadi antidot kepada rusuh hatinya menghadapi semua cerita orang. (Kalo ade abang, sure la abang yang akan jadik antidot kpd rusuh hati ayang. Eh die lagi tua dr aku, so abang ke adik? What the fuck does antidote means anyway?) Tidak lama lagi pelakon yang berasal dari Kedah ini bakal bergelar DSP Zita melalui drama bersiri Gerak Khas.

Kepadanya, suasana penggambaran dan kesibukan dapat menukar hala tuju pemikiran dan ia adalah lebih penting daripada terlalu memikirkan cakap-cakap orang.

“Saya mencari cinta, bukan harta,” tegas wanita ini yang kini bergelar duta barang kemas Avon. (But I seek both! That's why I'm gonna marry a beatiful girl who has a rich father! Opss no no. I seek love too.)

Melihat ke dalam mata yang diselaputi warna biru kanta lensa, orang akan menemui kejujuran di situ.

Saya cuba bertanya lagi, bagaimana keadaan seorang Rozita apabila jatuh hati dan lelaki yang bagaimana dapat membuat dia berasa kuasa listrik cinta? (That's another bombastic word. Listrik.)

“Saya tahu saya jatuh cinta apabila hati saya sering berdebar-debar dan sering melihat ke arah telefon bimbit. Memeriksa sama ada terdapat SMS yang dikirimkan olehnya. (Me too. But sadly, you never reply me. What's that? You never got my number?)

“Saya kurang gemar lelaki berusia. Saya mahukan lelaki muda. (Yes! Yes! (I am jumping on the chair while both my hands were up on the air)). Lelaki yang tidak berfikiran kolot dan dapat mengawal keadaan.

“Dia juga perlu bijak dan pandai bercakap. Saya hanya mahu mendengar dia berkata-kata dan saya akan terdiam sambil memerhati,” ujarnya tersenyum cantik. (Owhh shit. That's gonna be a big problem. I am kind of a listener myself. But I can practice!)

Tuturnya dalam senyuman ditemani tahi lalat di pipi: “Kalau benarlah lelaki kaya itu jujur dan mahu membantu ibu tunggal, saya sarankan mereka berkahwin dengan wanita yang dalam kesusahan.

“Itu baru benar-benar dinamakan pertolongan yang ikhlas.” (No problemo, provided she is hot as hell like you!)

Rozita lantas bersiap-siap untuk sesi fotografi VAZZ kali ini dalam emosi gembira, namun hanya Tuhan yang tahu apa yang terkandung dalam diri dan hatinya.

That sum up our session today Rozita. I hope i have answered all your question. If you got any problemo, don't be shy, I am all up here willing to help you. (Fat chances dude!)

What Goes Around, May Not Necessarily Comes Around

You may have heard this idiom of "What goes around comes around." It is some sort of karma, where is whatever deeds that you have done, God will pay cash one day while you were still alive. The afterlife judment, that will be another question.

But I wouldn't much agree with it. And it seems, much people misinterpreted it in much ways. Okay lets take an example (well this was certainly an actual quote, I got it from erm...somebody).

"You must remember ...... (put down a necessary name, if you please, you can put yours as well), what goes around comes around. You must remember you still have .... (mother/sisters/children/anything that important to you), i cannot blame anybody if anything happens to them."

Which is, in a way, pissed me off, as it sounds like a threat to me. And as I mentioned earlier, I wouldn't much agree with it. Let me tell you why.

1. God will never punish other people for any wrong doings that you have done. Or vice versa. Your sins is yours to burden, you just can't simply cast your burdens on other people.

Another example.

"Kesian makcik tuh kan anak dia kene ......... (whatever miserable things that might happen). Nih sure pasal mase dia muda2 dulu die pun sama jugak ......... (bla bla bla you know what i mean anyway)."

2. And who are us to judge whatever test or engagement that God has given to us? Whatever happens to that makcik, is not for us to judge. Whether it is related to her sins in the past, we may never know, for that is the work of God, and He alone understand the good and bad of the consequences.

Okay, this sounds much like a ceramah agama already. I'm quitting before anybody call me Ustaz!

We Always Celebrate New Year with Something Controversial

Breaking news!

I bet most of us will be telling each other right now about the busted sex party. At least I am. And people started to wonder who is this newscaster who got busted. I know! Let me tell you who she is. The winner is... (drums roll).. Farahrizan Abd. Razak from Astro Awani!

Who??

Well I don't know her myself. But google knows all! Here is a picture of her.


Goddy God! Isn't she's a cutie? She's cute and horny! Double combo! Just like the double prosperity burger. You got a double taste in one bite!

And I bet you, she will tell us later that she did not know its gonna be a drug party. Or its not even a sex party. I am innocent!

Well who doesn't? Everybody is innocent in this world, it is the satan who should be blamed. Besides, cute innocent girl who is horny, that gonna be a tripple combo!

She should've learn this from the Pramugara Terlampau and Wan Nor Azlin. Or from Bill Clinton for God sake!

I watched David Letterman a few years back, about the Bill Clinton and Monica Lewinsky scandal. He listed several tips before you decided to do something wicked, and the top of the list is:

DON'T GET CAUGHT.

2009 Rant

2009 has arrived. Me still sticked at the same job that me have been doing for the past 2 and a half years. Well, no biggies that. I love doing what currently I am doing, and I have decided to make telecommunication as my focus field, meaning if ever there were job hopping, I will jump to a telco based company hopefully.

As usual, new year resolution. I am usually not into this new year resolution shit or what not, however for this year, I will make one. I will compile all the knowledge that I've gained, and do research some more, and share it with others. I'll give myself one year to complete this. My sources, no other than Internet, the biggest library in the world, and some manual training that I got.

Okay enough of that shit. Nobody wanna listen to that as well.

I read about the X-Files from obefiend's blog the other day. I was an X-Philes myself, before the series decided to involve some alien shit and government conspiracies in it. Blergghh. I hate aliens. I don't even believe in one. Aliens are just a US agenda (more like a Jew agenda) to propagate godlessness. You just imagine, if there really something out there, who is their Nabi? Who is their God? What is their Kiblat? What is their religion? For the believers, they will started to question all these. Islam already said that Islam is the only approved religion, no other. Some more, if they were really exist, why the fuck they kept coming to US? I never heard of a pakcik in Ulu Betong saw a tiny little green man with 3 fingers before. And why the fuck aliens must look like ET btw? Why can't it looks like a cat, or a fish perhaps? And crop circle. Bahhh.. Never heard of Pak Amid's sawah padi's got bumped by some alien ships, you can only heard about that in the US. Trust me man. Stop looking. There were nothing out there. We were all alone all this while.

What else?.. Ermm right. I read about this in Dila's blog, The Malaysian Film Producers Association wants the Hollywood movies ticket price to be hiked to protect the locals.

What does it means? It means, you have to pay RM20 for a Hollywood movie. That all is matter. I don't watch a local, unless it is good enough, so I don't give a shit of what the price is. I will not pay a penny for Antoo Fighter. But they want to hike the price of a Hollywood movie, as a punishment because we don't watch a local? Which means we were being punished because we don't watch a crappy movie, so that they can get rich, and they can make some more crappy movies, and make them richer? Now that make me pissed!

I say what? Let just pay the RM20 for a hollywood movie, and don't go watch the local. How's bloody that? Power to the people eh Afdlin (Shauki)? Now you see the true power of the people!

Hmm.. what else? Right. In utusan today, FAM reported to open the National team head of coach job to the public. Blerghh. I remembered when Dell Akhbar Khan stepped down from being the Secretary General, they did the same too. Open the job to public. In the end, Ibrahim Saad got the job. One of them. Blerghh again.

I think that is enough. 3 topics in one go, ain't that bad eh? Happy New Year everyone. And that if, there is anyone reading this. Blerghh..